i pray . . .

Sometimes
I want to open my hijab. and show the world that 
I too am beautiful in the people's definition.

But
deep down here. in my little heart. I know that beauty is by definition.
a mystery. and it is forever more rewarding. to be beautiful in God's eyes.

Sometimes
I want to wear ruffled dresses and tight jeans. show off what I really look like
under those baggy shirts and loosely fitted pants. make a statement.
that I too have a figure and worth looking at.

But
I know better to avoid entering the world of men's imagination.
for I love my future husband. and I am ashamed.
what should be his. has already been unveiled by others.

Sometimes
I want to show the world. the other side of me.
the bubblier. bolder. and crazier me. put myself on display.
for everyone to see to be desired and admired upon.

But
I know that eyes are not just eyes. seeing is not just seeing.
image and respect are gained. shame and humility deserve a better place

because in the end. it is not just about me
I carry a lot of impressions and expectations of what a Muslim girl should be

I am covered by the word "Islam" the moment I walk out of my door
so don't be selfish girl
can't you put behind your heart's desire for something worth fighting for?

Love is all it takes
insyaALLAH

yang baik datangnya dari ALLAH

yang kurang datang dari hambanya yang kerdil ni

sama-sama kita perbaiki diri kita ke arah yang lebih baik

step by step. take time. being positive. be a good one for anyone

assalamualaikum sicomel sicantik